Because they are of no use to me. I would not be rid of them only because the nature of emotions is to make one wish to keep them. I hold on to something useless simply because the idea of losing it hurts and I should not be capable of being hurt by these intangible things. It is a weakness.

There are days in which I believe that I would tear apart the universe to have that which I "long for", as you put it. And if I were what I once was I would not even have the capability to regret all that would be destroyed in the process.

I cannot understand allowing yourself to be stopped by the inability to form a question.